Its been long since I ever blogged and today, i felt like. 

People who are sick and have a few months left cherish their life very much. Each day fighting to save themselves from being dead. But what about those who are very much still living and not having to worry about fighting death? Sometimes, I wished I’m one of those few who have only few months to live. Maybe boiled down with some cancer stage four. I’ve always asked why Allah, why?

Who do i turn to? I always consider myself being lonely. People who truly understands me? WHO? I doubt anyone ever even understands me. I sit down and think. Thousands of question ponder to me. 

Regret. Yes, i regret my decisions in life. I regret not listening to my parents. I regret not picking the course i wanted in NP. Marine. I regret. But oh well, at least now, i’m doing logistics. Not that bad. Not many girls are in this course, so i should consider myself being lucky. 

Jealousy.  Every girl feels jealousy in them. Every girl wants that guy in their life. I wonder when will Allah show me my partner. When will Allah let me have a taste of being in love. Seeing couples so sweet and loving makes me jealous. ): 

Losing faith in everything.

But I believe, Allah will show me the way.